I don't think whatever anyone is doing is helping right now. I still think I am a failure and things are not going to change even in the next five years. Whatever I do, whoever I leave behind, whoever I approach, it will not make any difference. I am failing and it seems I am born this way. I guess each one of us had a role to play in this lifetime and I am not one of the main players. I could easily be ignored and nothing is going to change that. This life is a complete waste of time. I envy every baby about to be born because they still have a chance to escape things.